yeah yeah, i deserve to die i know. i know this.
yeah yeah, i deserve to die i know. i know this.
2024-08-20 02:57:29 +0000 UTC View Post
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i only need 97 for the rest of my weekly rent. last time it ..
i only need 97 for the rest of my weekly rent. last time it was 360, im hoping the price is the same or i will probably just start crying on the spot because my brain damage is so bad now i can't control my emotions like i used to.
im really hoping my old job will actually give me a last paycheck, they said they would mail it to me so i hope they actually do but i don't know when and depending on when, i will literally already be sleeping at the train station 🙄
i have applied for low income housing.
every single homeless shelter around here, is the exact same price as the motel (yes you need to pay to live in a shelter in this state and surrounding states that ive checked and called)
i have called every single apartment that's under 800 per month and the similar response from all of them is: "no availability" or "waiting list of a year minimum"
every other job ive applied to, immediately sends me a "sorry we aren't looking for candidates right now." whenever i enter disabled in the questionnaire they put up.
i am frustrated, just with the processes of everything. you can't even find a room to rent in the student housing complexes for less than 700 a month.
ive found a few motels that are cheaper but they're out of state so id have to travel, risk getting sick again and starting everything over, again, for the hundredth time in my life.
idk im mostly ranting and explaining myself because for some reason a ton of people assume im "being lazy" and uh, my body is just shutting down from years of overworking, having everything (especially the money that was supposed to be for my future) stolen from me countless times, and severe head trauma. so im just exhausted, as someone who's been shanked in the head and has severe brain damage and constant seizures, im exhausted. i want a normal job. i want a normal life. everything hurts all the time.
im sorry to everyone who really enjoyed the content that i was being f/rced into making and wasn't even being paid for, but you're not going to treat me like im a monster because im not making it anymore. you're not going to degrade me because you feel guilty when ive said countless times that no one needs to feel that way because you didn't know i was being f/rced. since i deleted that content, i had over 1k people telling me to off myself, and that i deserve to be harmed in detailed horrid ways because the content is deleted now and i don't have to make it anymore (and not even be paid)
so im exhausted and im trying to pretend like this are okay but they're not. being told by hundreds of people that you deserve to 💀 is horrible and im tired. just please go away if you hate me.
sneak peak for the pictures in the Erotica; "His, and His On..
sneak peak for the pictures in the Erotica; "His, and His Only." that ive written, and will be published in a few days (hopefully it's approved 🥹❤️)
pictures are all black and white with the insta gritty filter. photo style is crime noir ❤️ featuring me as the Alice Coniglio character; in dancer French burlesque style lingerie that i hand sewed myself. CGI weapons 👀, downtown New Orleans, beaches, "tutte le destinazioni" , roses, VIP room pictures, stage pictures, champagne, cigarettes, among other noir type style pictures ❤️
"Money and power play are at stake, it's too risky. But he doesn't care enough to play the unspoken rules of this game. Life is his own game. He is a God and we are all his subjects to play with. To taste. To fuck. To own."
Alice Coniglio is the main female character, she has rabbit super powers 🐇
Damian Heph is the man male character and love interest, he has fire super powers 🔥 the book includes all of these pictures ❤️🪽
this is all photoshoot style! for artistic purposes for my book because i don't have money to pay for a model lol... so i had to use myself + old pictures of mine 😂🩷🪽
im sorry to anyone who had witnessed me having seizures on m..
im sorry to anyone who had witnessed me having seizures on my live stream. i know i had some because of the way i feel right now... and i woke up to see a comment from a viewer asking me if i was okay. they are uncontrollable but i am still sorry to anyone who saw, they are scary to witness especially because they can result in 💀
i hope everyone is having a good day, i will probably be spending the rest of the day sleeping. thank you to everyone who shows up to my lives still, i appreciate you all a lot 🩷
*sneaking in my rabbit fursona Alice Coniglio in my next sto..
*sneaking in my rabbit fursona Alice Coniglio in my next story with Damian Heph* 👀👀👀
2024-08-17 00:57:46 +0000 UTC View PostTaken By A Maniac!! Kindle version 😊🩷 amazon.com/dp/B0DDBZFX..
Taken By A Maniac!! Kindle version 😊🩷
amazon.com/dp/B0DDBZFX9T
MY BOOK HAS BEEN APPROVED FOR PUBLISHING!! IT SHOULD BE AVAI..
MY BOOK HAS BEEN APPROVED FOR PUBLISHING!! IT SHOULD BE AVAILABLE FOR PURCHASE IN 24-48 HOURS 🥹🥹🥹🩷🩷🩷 AHHHHHH
2024-08-16 09:36:14 +0000 UTC View Postif you have ever seen the movie "The Hunt" i am the characte..
if you have ever seen the movie "The Hunt" i am the character Snowball/Crystal when it comes to my political views. literally just: "wtf is going on? why am i here? can i go home?"
2024-08-15 08:00:48 +0000 UTC View Posti bit the heck out of my tongue while seizing in my sleep la..
i bit the heck out of my tongue while seizing in my sleep last night so ouchies :,) lol might be talking weird for tonight live cause my tongue is a tad swollen
2024-08-14 23:06:58 +0000 UTC View Postmy books is now in review for hardcover and ebook purchases ..
my books is now in review for hardcover and ebook purchases 🥹🥹🥹 24-72 hours until its (hopefully) approved 🥹🌹🌹🌹
2024-08-14 03:25:26 +0000 UTC View Postuploading my manuscript now, it'll probably take a few hours..
uploading my manuscript now, it'll probably take a few hours, but i can start editing the next book to get it ready for publishing :)
2024-08-13 22:56:33 +0000 UTC View Postso considering im most likely fired cause of yesterday 😅 i s..
so considering im most likely fired cause of yesterday 😅 i started on book publishing last night with kindle. the second edition of the first book in the series; "Taken By A Maniac" is in progress right now and will be available on the rainforest website (amazon) soon... it's definitely a horror story but its okay that it's categorized as dark taboo romance too. ill probably go live and talk about it while editing, idk, i just woke up cause i stayed up all night proofreading 4 chapters and i have 12 chapters total (3-4k words each chapter)
so it may be a while but yeah, im gonna be writing a lot of taboo dark romance if anyone is interested in those, or interested in doodles for commissions, please let me know.
and if somehow any of you have read Taken By a Maniac on Wattpad, thank you, first of all 🥺🩷 and second, this version will have much better grammar/be longer and more spooky c:
so the creepy trainee manager at my job who takes pictures o..
so the creepy trainee manager at my job who takes pictures of everyone while he's working kicked me out of my shift and claimed i "ran off the job" without warning last night (i had to leave because of my epilepsy and explained that, even showed him my medicine BEFORE I LEFT THE BUILDING proving i have epilepsy cause he asked for a doctors note) so i went to a real manager to explain what was going on and the trainer gave me a 💀 glare the entire time, and changed up his story to again, make me the bad guy again. i told the real manager he was taking pictures of everyone so i don't care when im scheduled as long as it's not with him, and walked out. so im probably fired now anyways.
2024-08-11 23:07:43 +0000 UTC View Post🩷🩷🩷 casual reminder that you deserve respect, love, and care..
🩷🩷🩷 casual reminder that you deserve respect, love, and care 🩷🩷🩷
2024-08-10 06:55:31 +0000 UTC View Posti was asked to point out some of the scars on my face (i do ..
i was asked to point out some of the scars on my face (i do not take offense when asked about these things, no worries 🩷) and tbh, the one above my left eye is most noticable, the other ones aren't as noticeable (i don't think they are noticable at least)
but these are the marks, the rest are on my scalp, hidden by my hair
i forgot my mashed potatoes ;+;
i forgot my mashed potatoes ;+;
2024-08-07 20:49:01 +0000 UTC View Poststop offering me to move in with you guys as well. im not go..
stop offering me to move in with you guys as well. im not going to live with any of you.
2024-08-07 15:52:07 +0000 UTC View Postno offense but with everything ive been through, i absolutel..
no offense but with everything ive been through, i absolutely do not need to be a 100% sweetheart all the time. especially to people who are aggressive with me bc the content i was f0rced to make is gone. i also will not share my trauma with any of you on a deeper level because it's not your business. simple as that. you all know plenty about me. you don't need details of what i went through, that's sick to even ask for.
2024-08-07 15:35:45 +0000 UTC View Postpolice have been informed of everything and are ready to arr..
police have been informed of everything and are ready to arrest on the spot if he comes near me or crosses state lines to look for me.
2024-08-06 05:05:09 +0000 UTC View Postim thrilled that my current hyper fixation meal is chicken/b..
im thrilled that my current hyper fixation meal is chicken/beef beans, mashed potatoes, and green beans c:
2024-08-06 01:46:28 +0000 UTC View Posti was taught how to do my job today by a very nice man who h..
i was taught how to do my job today by a very nice man who has trained everyone c:
i worked for 5 hours today, which is a nice start. i mostly rinsed, hand washed, and sorted dishes into a big bin to go into a final wash machine for most of today. they're gonna teach me how to close tomorrow, im excited ☺️
oh yeah and for the 20 minutes i was supposed to be clocked ..
oh yeah and for the 20 minutes i was supposed to be clocked in, apparently i wasn't. so i literally asked the manager: "so ive been here for 20 minutes, unpaid training, and being yelled at for no reason?"
he sighed and was like, "yeah, essentially, im sorry."
so i just got booted off of my job after only being there fo..
so i just got booted off of my job after only being there for 20 minutes. because the dishwasher guy got frustrated that i was doing my job??? he didn't teach me like he was supposed to, the other dishwasher guys tried helping me learn before they had to leave work and i easily figured out the rest by watching them. the other dishwasher guys leave bc they're off the clock now. so i pick up the rest of dishes and start cleaning, he turns off the dishwasher machine and proceeds to tell me im not working fast enough and that he doesn't want me working there. and suddenly the manager is asking me to come back another day because apparently ive ruined all productivity.
are you serious???
my family really truly made sure i was set up for failure in..
my family really truly made sure i was set up for failure in every way possible. and now everything is my responsibility?? i don't even know what im doing.
2024-08-03 20:18:27 +0000 UTC View Posti got cheapo cooking supplies at the store today cause the h..
i got cheapo cooking supplies at the store today cause the hotel doesn't actually supply them anymore bc people kept stealing them :^) way to ruin it for everyone else thieves.
but anyways, this guy has been yelling at me every time to get into his car cause he'll pay me, for the past few days. today he stalked me for a mile, i walk on the side of a hwy mind you, he pulled into a restaurant in front of me, yelled at me to get into his car and again; "what's the problem?!? im gonna pay you!" and i ran while screaming and he pulled out and drove to another gas station and started taking pictures of me. so i filmed him immediately, got his description, license plate number, and omw back to my place, HES FOLLOWING ME AGAIN. yet again, telling me he'll pay me to get in his truck. so i hide in another gas station and call 911 (whilst having to make sure the guys inside the gas station don't make an example of this guy)
the creep admitted to the cop that he followed me and everything but; "i thought she was someone else." so they can't do anything unless he does this again because he admitted to the stalking, but claims he assumed i was someone else. so hopefully he truly thought i was someone else but i don't buy it. i need pepper spray or something but i can afford it.
feeling a bit better health wise 🥺🩷 still feel sick but im a..
feeling a bit better health wise 🥺🩷 still feel sick but im alive. i need a can opener :/ maybe a pot or two to cook with too
2024-08-02 21:00:36 +0000 UTC View Postmay i have 40 dollars to RinJilsig? 🥺 the 💚green💚 schmoney a..
may i have 40 dollars to RinJilsig? 🥺 the 💚green💚 schmoney app
2024-08-01 22:19:46 +0000 UTC View Postaaannnndddd police are here and the dude is trying to argue ..
aaannnndddd police are here and the dude is trying to argue with them in the hallway. how did you get back inside dude? 😭😭😭 just leave lmfao
2024-08-01 06:23:00 +0000 UTC View Postso this guy found a keycard ig and tried breaking into my ro..
so this guy found a keycard ig and tried breaking into my room, three times, obviously didnt work because i have both of my cards. then tried the door across from me, then another door next to that one and i said, "BRO WHAT IS YOU DOING?" hella loud and he bolted down the hallway and out the front door 🙄 i called the front desk, let them know what he did, and she let me know she watched him basically run out the door.
2024-08-01 06:01:13 +0000 UTC View Posti am now out of the hospital, i had multiple seizures. Keppr..
i am now out of the hospital, i had multiple seizures. Keppra is kicking in. i am really really hungry 😭😭😭 spghettios
2024-08-01 03:13:39 +0000 UTC View Post
