

November 6th Friday I am writing this naked, on the coziest sofa in the world. My body wrapped in a white faux fur blanket. The sun just disappeared behind the trees- their leaves half-fallen, a sign of the approaching chill. Fall always ignites a lot of reflection in me. Especially my birth month of November. This week has been full of reminders of who I am and what I want. The most important being that I feel most connected and abundant in this work when I am being incredibly myself. When I am making content I feel proud of- that feels like me. I felt a little lost in August and September and ever since I’ve been grounding myself in femininity and what my heart wants and I am starting to feel so renewed. It feels as though I am returning to myself and in perfect time for my birthday in 7 days. It feels warm and delicious. A few days ago I put in a deposit for my van build. The build will start in April. I can’t even describe how happy I am. This has been a dream of mine for years and I finally have the finances to make it happen. That is 100% because of my success on onlyfans. Which means... you are quite literally helping me make my dreams come true. I’ve been feeling so much gratitude for being at 0.92% of all creators here. That is a rare occurrence for plus size models and I love that we are rewriting the rules and showing the world that curves should be treasured. More soon my love. I hope you’re in a good and renewing place mentally and physically. yours, alexandra (p.s. If you don’t know what a van build is, here is a video of my favorite one: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=gWb39CS3GuM)